Newsflash

(insert Kermit the Frog news update sound here)

I have fallen off the wagon.

I have jumped off the wagon.

I have taken a full-fleged step into weight-loss insanity and skydived off the wagon.

Although I have kept a mental note of the fact that I am going over my daily points allowance, I haven’t recorded anything since the accident.  At this moment, I am up 0.4 lbs. from the total I’ve lost.  Tomorrow will be more of the same.  I feel ugly inside and out of control and having to keep track of points is just one too many things for my overworked and highly medicated brain to do.

The program…. the program is something I love.  It’s something I’ll get back on.  I know eating doesn’t solve my problems.  I know eating may actually make my problems worse.  But I need a vice real bad right now, and since drugs, alcohol, and free love are out, food is it.